Eye on the Prize!

It sounds so cheesy but it's something I try to remind myself everyday I start to feel a little down. "Eye on the prize!" For me, this means looking at photos of figure competitors and comparing my photos from when I first started to where I am now.

I received a few texts over the last couple days asking me what I do to stay on track and if it's worth it. I have a feeling people might have thought that I was flying through this transformation piece of cake (yummm! Bad reference!) Yesterday was one of those not so good days. I couldn't understand it! I had a great workout with my trainer, a great morning cardio sesssion, a little foot massage with one of my best friends and yet but day was still blah! I couldn't snap out of it. To the point that I came home at 5:00 and slept for a couple hours before pulling myself together and walking to the gym for my second cardio session. The second I stepped on that stepmill, it was like something shocked me, "You're here now, make it count!" is what I heard in my head! So what did I do...45 minutes of hard intervals! It felt so good during and after! I like to play this little game with myself while I'm on there. Stay on there longer than the people on the sides of you. (Accomplished!) Obviously 45 minutes is somewhat of an abnormal amount of time for cardio so people on the sides of me turns into a couple people getting in their cardio session but who cares...I outlasted them! When someone new gets on with a lot of intensity (obviously because they just started out) pretend like they are giving you some of their energy. Or, if you're pretending it's a race, someone is on your heels. Just keep going!  It's a mental game to keep you going. Then I look at all the other cardio equipment (the cardio equipment at my gym is all together) and even though the gym starts clearing out at 8:00pm, I kept telling myself, you're winning! You're winning! Hey, whatever it takes! Pretend it's a race...even though you are your fiercest competitor, liven it up a little! It may feel like everyone else is out there having fun, relaxed, enjoying themselves in food and alcohol but it's okay for us to be selfish for a little while. In turn, this will make us so much happier. And who are we trying to please anyway?! No one but yourself! So even though you are having a rough day, push yourself, even a little bit! I guarantee you will feel better!!

6 more weeks!

I am currently six weeks out from showtime! Oh, how I thought this day would never come! haha

My body is truly being pushed to the limits! Due to work and other commitments I have been waking up between 4am-5am every weekday to get my cardio in! Here is what this week looks like for me workout wise:
Monday- 45 minutes HIIT stepmill AM and PM
Tuesday- Train back and 45 minutes HIIT stepmill AM and PM
Wednesday- Train shoulders and 25 minutes of HIIT stepmill and 35 minutes treadmill (Level 3.5/ Incline 10)
Thursday- Train legs and 25 minutes of HIIT stepmill and 35 minutes treadmill (Level 3.5/ Incline 10)
Friday- 45 minutes HIIT stepmill AM and 45 minutes stemill PM
Saturday- Train upper body and 45 minutes HIIT stepmill AM and 45 minutes stemill PM
Sunday- Train legs and 25 minutes HIIT stepmill 6-8 hours after legs

YES...you read that correctly...not a day off! I also haven't had a high carb day since early last week so I'm reallllly looking forward to a full bagel and some extra rice tomorrow! My body aches, my muscles are sore, and I would love to get a little more sleep. However, at the same time, my adrenaline is flowing each and everyday for this competition. ONLY six more weeks I keep telling myself! I have been training since mid-November so it has been about five months and now I only have six weeks left! I can do this! There is definitely no giving up now!

Last Thursday, I met a seamstress that makes competition suits! This was really really exciting! It was like it was really official! I am doing this show and I'm having a custom suit made! Here is a picture of the fabric swatch I chose. I will be picking up the suit next Thursday and bedazzling it myself. I'm currently working on the design!

It's too bad that this is all almost done because I feel like I've FINALLY gotten into a routine of shopping (at Costco), cooking 1-2 times/week for the entire week, prepping the night before for the next day, getting to bed at a decent hour, and waking up ready to go! Below are a few pictures I wanted to share...

I eat 6 egg whites and 1/3 cup of oatmeal for breakfast, 1 cup of egg beaters blended with instant coffee, splenda, and sugar free syrup post workout, and then 5 meals of white fish (tilapia or tuna) and a cup of veggies. The picture is of the five main meals.

The first column is from about a month ago. The second column is from Saturday. Note: I weigh 1.5 lbs more in the photos from Saturday. See what more muscle tone and less fat can look like! Feels good!! (I know...I need a tan!)

"My strength lies solely in my tenacity."

I didn't write a blog last week because I had NO idea what to write about. It was just one of those "eh weeks". This week...whole different story. It was more than an "eh week"...it was a "I want to give up, I can't do this, no way do I want to keep going, give me ice cream and cookies and french fries and bread and let me sit in my room, by myself, and stuff my face kind of week"!! And guess what, on Friday, I would have been MORE than okay with that!


I had a bad couple of days toward the end of the week. Nothing in particular, just in a mood. The end of the weeks are always the hardest for me. Monday starts off great, I see my trainer Tuesday through Thursday and Thursday evening is when the exhaustion kicks in. Friday is always pretty miserable but starting off Saturday morning with a great gym session definitely spruces things up. The weekend goes by okay and then Monday I'm off to a great start again! Sounds a little bi-polar, I know, but it is what I've been feeling for about the last three months and at this point, I'm just embracing it as it is what it is.


It was Friday afternoon and it was pouring rain outside. Food consumed my every thought! Yogurtland with chunks of cookie dough and cheesecake pieces, donuts, carne asada nachos, french fries, cookies, red velvet cupcakes, anything and EVERYTHING  that had to do with food was taking over every inch of my brain! I can't do this! I thought to myself. As soon as I'm done here, I'm going to Yogurtland, getting a heaping thing of yogurt and treats, going home, crawling under the covers, and devouring the whole thing! Savoring every single bite and not feeling a bit guilty! I have never thought about food, and crappy food, in the way I think about it now! You would think that I was a heavy kid growing up and I was in the process of going back to my old ways. It's pretty sad actually! Well, as I let those thoughts take over my every brain cell, I started crying. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I sent one of my best friend's a text that read, "I'm depressed...don't think I want to do this competition anymore!!" She called me within a second and literally talked me down from the ledge! She reminded me how long I have been wanting to do this. How much time and energy I have put into this training. How hard I've worked! The results I've seen! And yet, on my side of the phone, all I could do was cry. Cry to the point that I couldn't breathe enough to even get a word out. So I just listened. She told me how proud she was of me and how I only had a short period of time left and reminded me that I've been doing this since November!! Why stop now she asked. I said, "I just want to eat! I want to do what everyone else is doing and not feel guilty about it. Maybe I'm okay with the way my body is now. Maybe I don't need to get to into "figure show shape". Maybe I'll just keep training hard but if I want to eat, gosh darn it I'm going to eat!" She then spoke some more while I cried and listened. As soon as we got off the phone I text my trainer. Her and I text back and forth for a bit and then talked later on. She let me know her struggles that she went and still goes through at times. How it's totally normal to feel this way and to share my every thought with her. She let me know that I'm not crazy or bipolar and she too reminded me how far I've come. She allowed me a cheat meal on Friday night to ease my mind and it would also speed up my metabolism and shock my body. But eight weeks out, I was slightly worried this would hurt me. She said, "It will do more good at the point then bad." So Matt and I went to Fleming's and had an extremely guilt-less meal! Bread, salad, steak, potatoes, and carrot cake for dessert! My stomach you ask?...well that didn't feel too great that night and in the morning...I felt so puffy and dehydrated BUT the meal was delicious, the company was even better, and the workout I had that morning was fantastic! Kristi, my trainer, checked on me Saturday afternoon and reminded me again of everything she did before. I then went grocery shopping and stocked up on all the essentials and have been cooking the last couple days so that I'm prepared to take on the week!


I have eight more weeks (sounds so much shorter than two months!)! I can do this! Erika was right, I can do this because I have wanted this for so long!! Why give up now?! I would be so upset with myself later if I gave up, especially, being this close. I may have one more breakdown, I may have eight, who knows?! But at the end, on June 9, it will ALL be worth it!




"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."

Dedication and Perseverance

As I contemplated on what to write this blog about a few things crossed my mind. At first I was worried about training for a figure competition to come across as annoying or negative. I don't want anyone to read this blog or any past or future blog and think, "Now why on earth are you doing that to yourself?" Or when hearing me talk about it to think that I'm portraying it in a negative light. Then I realized that I was over thinking this "blog" and just needed to write from the heart.

I am in no way complaining about training for this nor talking negative on it. Heck, I chose to do this! This is a choice and I could technically quit whenever I feel like it. There is no doubt that I could (and sometimes want to) go to the store and buy a dozen cookies and eat them ALL or get a huge Philly cheesesteak and devour it in under 5 minutes but I then have to remind myself, what will that accomplish? That may satisfy a craving during consumption and for about 2 minutes afterwards but what will I feel like on the inside? What will my insides be doing? You see, when you consume sugar (whether it be in sweets or in bread) your insulin levels spike which then sends your body in to fat storage mode. For what I'm trying to accomplish, this is not good! Let me tell you what a typical food diary currently looks like for me:

Meal 1: 3/4 cup of oatmeal w/ 1tbsp flax and 2tsp splenda
1 scoop of protein powder (shake)
Meal 2: 1 scoop of protein powder mixed with coffee.
Meal 3: 5 oz Turkey and Veggies
Meal 4: 5 oz Tilapia and Veggies
Meal 5: 5 oz Turkey and Veggies
Meal 6: 5 oz Tilapia and Veggies
Meal 7: 6 Egg Whites and 2 oz lean red meat

There is a regimen to get your body ready to compete on stage and I have ten weeks to go. Some days are a heck of a lot harder than others. Other days I have an insane amount of energy and fly through my workouts without thinking twice. Training for this has been one huge emotional roller coaster. (And you don't want to catch me when I'm at the bottom!) It seems that when I'm starting to have doubts I end up receiving a text or email with encouraging words which reminds me to keep on pushing. 30-45 minutes, twice a day, on either the stairstepper or the treadmill is actually doing wonders for getting my mind right! In the beginning, going back to the gym for that second cardio session almost seemed like a chore. Now, I welcome it! As my trainer recently blogged about, I close my eyes and visualize myself on stage, making each quarter turn flawlessly, smiling and having fun!

I would have to say that in the beginning, not being able to eat whatever I wanted was the most difficult part. Now that that craving is pretty much curbed, time management has been the hardest part. However, there is no "time management" when the only things there seems to be time for are to eat, work and workout. I feel that the person that has an even harder time then the one training is the one they live with, are dating, or married to. They didn't make the decision to train for a show, to have a limited diet, to only go eat at certain places at certain times, to go to the gym almost every single day commit to a 1-2 hour session! And yet, they're sucked in! Matt and I have had to make time and we are slowly figuring it out. On Sunday, he came to the gym with me and we did an insane leg workout and he even did my cardio with me afterwards! Now, that's Quality Time (and love)!


My clear stripper heels arrive last week and I've been eyeing up suits! I've decided to have a plain suit made for me and then I will bedazzle it myself with my own design. This will be time consuming but it will help me keep my mind off other things in between meals and it will give me an even bigger sign of accomplishment come showtime!

10.5 weeks out!

WOW!... what a lot of working out and extremely clean eating does to the body! 

So I have been training for this figure competition since November 2011 and I'm currently 10.5 weeks out from showtime!! Here are some updated photos!

                     

Just Do It!

I had a moment this weekend that I'm not particularly proud of but I want to share because it will just give you a small glimpse of what training for a Figure Competition is like. All those common mottos you may here, "It may not be easy, but it's worth it!" "Just do it!" "Shut up and do it!" The list goes on and on...yet not one of those could have pulled my head out from where it was from this weekend.

The weeks are fairly easy for me. I wake up, workout almost instantly, work, get all my meals in every 2-3 hours, go back to the gym for cardio, and call it a night. Once Saturday and Sunday hit, all of this becomes a little more difficult. I start off the day great...we wake up, eat a healthy breakfast, get an amazing workout in at the gym, then go home and refuel. Dun dun dun...around noon is when it's time to start errands and/or meet up with friends to do something. This means packing a cooler/bag of my meals for the next 2-6 hours. I'm not going to lie, this is somewhat of a pain! When you don't have a fridge to keep your food in and a microwave to heat it up before eating it, it can become pretty redundant and annoying. Wouldn't it just be easier to drive through Chick-filet, swing by Yogurtland, grab a sandwich at Henry's?? I mean, that's what Matt's doing and he looks great! For what I'm doing though, these things are not realistic.

I will leave out the details but Saturday was a rough one for me. I was around friends and everyone around me was having a fantastic time, why couldn't I let loose and enjoy their company? Well, my meals were spaced out a little bit more than they should have been and while everyone else was enjoying a cold beer and snacking on whatever their heart chose, I was munching on cold chicken out of a tupperware. Spacing my meals out 5 minutes longer then they normally are (and that's not an exaggeration), things not going as planned, sweets only an inch from my face and yet I can't touch them, these things literally drive me nuts! And who gets to reap the emotional roller coaster this journey has taken me on...my lovely fiance!

I was humbled today when my trainer told me that she too goes through these spurts. You start to wonder why you're doing this, you question yourself, you cry, you yell, you're tired, you think of excuses... Talking with her today helped and brought me back to why I started all this. It's a challenge, to myself. I've wanted to do one of these for a LONG time! Matt also reminded me of that yesterday. I've been training for this since November, I have 12 weeks left, why stop now? Because it's getting hard? Because it's different? I've seen changes, I continue to see change, it's ONLY 12 more weeks. I'm going to push through this! I'm going to Just Do It!

     

Food Hangover?!

Unless you have ever been on a strict healthy diet and then had a "cheat meal" of something that normally isn't on your menu, you may not know what I'm referring to when I say the term "Food Hangover." I have been eating clean since mid November and almost every week, I have been allowed a "cheat meal" of my choosing. Whether it be clams and garlic bread, a glass of wine, frozen yogurt, ANYTHING...my stomach kills within an hour of eating it and I wake up the next day feeling like I repeatedly got punched in the stomach and drank an obscene amount of alcohol the night before. This really is the best way to put it. I'm extremely dehydrated, lethargic, bloated, tired, etc... From the beginning to now, the cravings have definitely subsided. I crave the "cheat meal" more so because it's available to me than actually really wanting it. It may be something Matt is eating (ice cream or some pasta--which I make him finish!) or something the kids I nanny for are eating (goldfish crackers or a PB+J sandwich).  The second those things touch my lips the first thought that comes to mind is, "Boy, this is going to taste so good". But what immediately follows that?..."Man, am I going to hurt and pay for this later?"

About a week and a half from now, 3/24, I will be exactly 12 weeks out from competition time! No more cheat meals, a stricter diet, more cardio, heavier lifting...thank God for an absolutely amazing trainer and a supportive fiance! I'm not going to lie, Matt has knocked bread rolls out of my hand (during the holidays) and squeezed my cheeks until I spit out what was in my mouth into his hand (something that shouldn't have been there). I also recently caught a pretty bad cold and sinus infection. My training sessions were not very good last week because of my lack of energy. Even though I'm not feeling 100% better, I still get up early and meet my trainer on our scheduled days to train. I would honestly say that without the accountability, I could find five excuses during a "busy" week to not make it to the gym. I'm not only doing this for myself but I'm doing this to make my trainer proud. She is helping me and encouraging me every single step of the way! No question is a silly question and she has an explanation to everything. It's never just, "because that's how it is." She knows how the body works, acts, and reacts and all of this is helping me reach my goal.

Anyone that has never trained for something will never really know what goes on inside our mind and bodies when it comes to preparing for something like this. I wake up around 5:30 almost everyday M-F. I lift five days a week and do cardio six days (usually twice a day; if not, then one big session). Everyone knows I have a job on top of trying to run a successful business. Needless to say, life doesn't stop for me. When I go back for that second cardio session in the evening, it takes every last ounce of energy I have. By the time the weekends come, the training doesn't stop. I actually do the most on the weekends because I have the time to dedicate to it. I rarely want to do social activities, even if it means meeting up with a few girlfriends. Besides being the temptation that is everywhere outside of my house, I'm exhausted and not very fun to be around. Thank goodness I have my trainer who can relate and talk me through it. I also have an extremely understanding fiance that communicates with me so we can figure out how to handle things as they come up.

At the 12 week out mark, I will post new photos and stay up to date on this blog more as things will more than likely be changing by the week. 12 weeks out is prep time...here we go!

           

16.5 weeks out

The column of pictures (in the green and white striped bikini) are from 30 weeks out from competition (November 2011). The second column (in yellow and coral bikini) are from today, 16.5 weeks out from competition. The main differences to look at in the photos are one, my hips! In the first set I'm wider. In the second set, my hips are significantly more narrow. Next, look at my shoulders. You can't see it too well in the photos but I did not have a "shoulder cap" in the first set. It is now starting to become defined. Lastly, look my photos from behind. You can see that my waist from my behind looks more narrow and my butt is sitting up a little higher. I am also starting to develop some back muscles!

A lot of you have asked what I'm training for, what the difference is between figure and bodybuilding, why am I doing this, etc... In figure competitions the judges look for a few different things in particular. 1) A nice round shoulder cap-- definition between the shoulder and bicep. 2) A V shape from back to waist. Meaning, the shoulders should be like an upper V and the lower back should be tapered down like the bottom point of a V. 3) Glute/Hamstring tie in. The glute and hamstring to flow nicely, aka no butt cleavage.

I'm doing this for myself, and myself only! It is a goal that I set for myself and I am truly loving the journey. The diet and process has gotten a lot easier as time has gone on, which I've mentioned in several other blogs.

The photos are only a 3.5 lb difference! But I feel stronger and look a lot better! Common myth: muscle wears more than fat. Truth: 1 pound of muscle weighs the same as 1 pound of fat, it just takes up a heck of a lot less space and makes your body look a heck of a lot better!

I'm currently lifting 5 days a week. One day of all back, one day of all shoulders, one day of heavy legs, one day of shoulders and back and one day of hamstrings and glutes. I'm also doing 25 min. of cardio on the stepmill at the end of the day, 6 days a week. Yes, most days I'm going to the gym twice a day!

Update

It has been awhile since I've posted. I have been extremely busy!! I figured I would start off with several updates:

1. I currently weigh 124.2 lbs.
2. I feel leaner every week!
3. Working out twice a day and getting up really early in the morning have become habit.
4. One of the keys to staying on track is prepping your meals ahead of time.
5. Encouragement and an extra push is ALWAYS needed! I don't care who you are.

I believe the last time I blogged my weight was a tad higher. My trainer explained to me that we aren't too concerned with my weight just yet because I am getting stronger and we are seeing overall changes. However, the time will come when the pounds need to come off. Stage weight for my height is between 112-114! It's crazy to think that I could weigh 10-12 lbs less than I do now but I welcome the new muscle!

Between my trainer and my fiance, we have been taking pictures if not every week, every other week. I will post new pictures by the end of this week. This helps us to monitor my progress. When you compete, your body fat and weight do not get measured. It's all about how you look on stage!

In the beginning, I was only working out with my trainer one, maybe two days a week. I'm not going to lie, in the beginning, it was extremely hard to get up at 5:30am to get ready to meet my trainer. I currently lift with her three mornings a week, lift on my own two other days, and we just increased my cardio to 25 minutes on the stepmill six days a week. (Before, I was on the stepmill long enough to burn 250 calories, which took about 20 minutes). Due to intervals, I burn about 340 calories on the stepmill in 25 minutes. I typically weight train in the morning and do cardio at night. Honestly, most of the time I welcome the evening session. There is no better way to start and end your day then with a killer workout! It definitely takes time for all of this to become routine. For me, it took about 2-2.5 months! But I kept pushing through it and continue to love it!

Prepping your meals ahead of time and ALWAYS having healthy food in the fridge is KEY!! I honestly can't stress that enough. When you let yourself get to the point of starving, and nothing is ready to eat, that's when you start munching and crave unhealthy foods. Matt and I take about two nights a week to prep food (usually Sundays and one week night). I make sure we have plenty of cooked chicken, turkey balls, red meat balls (same as turkey balls but with lean ground beef or sirloin), rice, and green veggies. In the evening or in the morning I measure out all of my meals and put them in containers so I can easily have them on the go. I can eat all of the food hot or cold. (You become immune to the cold meat after awhile.) I also carry around a half gallon water jug. I drink a half gallon of water during my lifting session as well as another half gallon during my cardio. I then drink another gallon in between those workouts. I never thought I could drink so much water!! A few things have helped me with that...I add calorie free flavoring to the gallon I drink in the middle of the day and Figure Fuel (http://www.bodybuilding.com/store/man/figure-fuel.html) to my water when I'm lifting and doing cardio for that extra kick.

I tried training for one of these about three years ago, before I met Matt. Turns out, I  needed that extra push to really get things moving. I definitely have the self-motivation, dedication, and discipline to do this and to succeed but it is crazy the things your mind tries to tell you when you have five minutes of cardio left or 2-5 more reps of an exercise. Having a trainer with me on my heavy lifting days and having Matt at home and as my "food partner" helps tremendously!! I honestly wouldn't have it any other way!

Everyone has their idea of "beautiful". This is mine! And when I picture myself in a wedding dress,
I picture my back looking like this!!

                                                         

A Little Change of Plans...

So I was originally planning on competing in the Figure Competition in about 9 weeks, March 17th. However, after meeting with my trainer last week, we decided that it would be best to continue training and compete on June 9th instead. She informed me that she is sure that I can get lean enough for the show in March BUT to come in with a competitive edge it would be best to compete in June since I will have a lot more muscle on by then. Being that I  have been an athlete my whole life and am extremely competitive there was no hesitation to her advice! I want to feel 100% confident on that stage and I want to truly be a competitor and my goal is to place!!

This does not mean that I get to eat and drink whatever I want for a little while or lighten up on weights and cardio at the gym. This means that I continue to work my butt off and stay focused and dedicated! This should almost make it a tad easier since I will be able to move somewhat slowly through the next 20ish weeks instead of rushing to get my body prepped for the show that is 9 weeks out. I compare it to studying for a test...would you rather stress and cram (ie. do the March show) or have time to study, work on things, and truly understand what you're getting yourself into (ie. June show). I am a firm believer that it's not about the destination, it's about the journey!

I will be working out with my trainer Monday-Wednesday at World's Gym and working out on my own two other days. I will continue to do cardio 5 days a week for 20 minutes on the stairmaster as for me, this burns about 250 calories.

So here are a few pictures. The first picture is from right before I left down for Christmas. I had already been training for about 6 weeks prior to those photos. The one below it is from tonight...21 weeks out from the competition at The Scottish Rite Center in June. Here is the link to the rest: http://my.bodybuilding.com/photos/view/type/progress

                                                                 

9.5 weeks out!

I realize it has been awhile since I last posted so it's time to update!

I have been asked to post pictures...I will get some up this week.

I started this journey at 127 lbs. I currently weigh 123.8.

Matt and I were out of town for the last week so there was A LOT of prepping to do! I made about 40 turkey balls, packed rice cakes and baby food rice cereal, cucumbers and celery to munch on as snacks, lots of protein powder, BCAA powder, CLA pills, etc...Needless to say I toted a cooler and a carry on suitcase of JUST food and supplements on to the plane. TSA at the airport wasn't too pleased with this on the way out of San Diego. They took my suitcase apart and sent over a woman to "inquire" about what everything was. Do I really look like someone that would blatantly smuggle drugs on an airplane?! Apparently!! Luckily, we made it through security and on to the plane with everything I needed!

We did go out to eat a couple times while on vacation but I was able to order a veggie egg white omelet for breakfast and a filet or fish for with veggies for dinner. Matt and I also made it to the gym several times while in Pennsylvania. (It truly helps having a motivating gym partner!)

We arrived back home yesterday and now it's game time! 9.5 weeks out from competition and I'm sure the time is going to fly by!! I'm currently lifting 5 days a week and doing enough cardio on the treadmill to burn 350 calories each session, 5 days a week. I will be meeting with my trainer next Tuesday and we will start working more on posing for the show! Time to order some clear heels...yes, I'm serious! It's kind of funny if you think about it...you spend money and lots of time on training, you then spend A LOT on a suit for the show, you get a really really really dark tan, doll up your hair and face and then throw on some clear stripper heels...hey, why not?!

I will probably order my suit at some point next month. There are people that make the suits custom to your body. Suit can range from $150-$900+!! It all depends on how bedazzled you want it. Bedazzling is a MUST!! I'm pretty sure I'm going to order a plain suit and bedazzle it myself! I think this will give me something fun to do (in my infinite amount of spare time) as well as keep me focused. I'm also going to order a few different types of dark tanning solution and test them out because the tan for the show can normally cost upwards of $100+!! I think I got the tan covered!

As you can see, these shows aren't cheap! The workouts aren't easy! And the diet is tough! But as long as you stay focused and prepared, you can make it through!! I...will make it through!!

                                        
                                                                It's pretty simple...

                                      
                                 Our airplane snacks: Cass-Turkey Balls/Matt-Cinnamon Roll